Tired (First Ever Blog)

               I like being anonymous. I don’t have to worry about not being able to say what I want. Well, this is my first blog ever as you can see. And if you can’t, look at the title of this post……..idiot. Um… I guess i’ll start by introducing myself. My name is Anonymous … and I’m 13 years old. I’m in the 8th grade and I’m hating every minute of it. I’m stressed. Extremely stressed. Balancing school and trying to “fit in” is hard stuff.  At school I always see groups kids walking and talking. I think I’m the only one that walks alone in the hallways. Don’t get me wrong, I have friends! It’s just I can’t seem to find a group and stick with them. I consider myself a social person. I talk to a bunch of different people and I have a lot of friends. But it would be nice to just have a “group.” I don’t get invited to most social things. Usually I’m kept out of “important” 8th grade secrets too. I don’t know why.
I’m tired. Not the sleepy kind of tired. Just tired. ALL OF THE TIME! The only time I’m not tired is when I’m around the person I like. When I’m around her, I suddenly get filled with energy! All my worries and troubles go away! The only problem is I don’t have the courage to tell her I like her. I’ll do it….someday.
My parents are another problem. I know they love me and want the best for me, but they are sooooo annoying. Well my mom is. See the problem is my grades. I make 90’s to 95’s on quizzes and tests. Last year I would make 100’s. She thinks I’m “not putting enough effort into my work.” I think I am. My mom likes to spend hours correcting and criticising my school grades and then when I make a good grade I get a simple “Good Job!” Not cool mom. Not cool.
When I was about 9 or 10 I would have anxiety attacks. They were the result of me watching Final Destination 3. I think i still get them. But it’s not death that I’m anxious about, it’s socializing. I profusely sweat when people stare at me. I just don’t like when they stare. And when I start sweating they stare at me even more. It’s so awkward. I’ve looked on WebMD to try to find what it’s called. It turns out it’s called hyperhidrosis or excessive sweating. The article is about how to deal with the problem and it doesn’t tell how to fix it. 😦 Step 9 is the step I like the most. It states, “Get help. Trying to deal with your sweating problem on your own can be stressful in itself. It can really help to talk with a professional psychologist or counselor, or to join a support group of people who have dealt with the same problem. If sweating is a persistent problem for you, see a doctor to find out what’s causing you to sweat, and to learn about possible treatments.” This is exactly what I need to do!! Talk to a psychologist or maybe a doctor!
Well, I think i’ve vented enough for today so uh….bye……….. I guess?

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